Life is a whole, even if we long fail to recognize it. This understanding eluded the psychologist Jacqueline von Kaenel her whole life. Upon suddenly learning of her imminent death, she begins to search for the key to her life. Unsparingly, she looks back and discovers how everything is connected; her privileged youth in Franco's Spain with her mother's feudal past in eastern Prussia, her desire for music with the one for a dominant and powerful husband. In her ambition to be a perfect mother, she recognizes her fight for identity. But all of a sudden experiences from her chiIdhood in a seemingIy happy famiIy crop up turning everything upside down.